What rock are you carrying that needs to be dropped?
What is the name of your rock?
The Rock of Shame?
The Rock of Resentment?
The Rock of Worry?
What will it take for you to drop that rock and not look back?
Or are you telling yourself you need to do more inner work?
More writing around it?
Delaying dropping the rock is a choice. Your choice.
When are you going to lighten up!?